You never know what a person is going through just by looking at them. Depression comes in many forms and is different for everyone. “It” can hide behind smiles, laughs, jokes and the most common line “I’m fine.” If you’re suffering in silence I want you to know that I’m with you because I am you. Let’s begin this journey to happiness together. Someone lit a spark inside of me and I want to do the same for you by shining a light on how important your mental health is. I’m going to tell you a little bit about my journey and how I’m currently working to finding true happiness within.
In society we mainly place the focus on physical health. Are we eating properly? Are we exercising at least 15 minutes a day? Are we getting our yearly checkups? Physical health is definitely important but when was the last time you checked on your mental health? When was the last time you asked yourself how am I feeling today? What do I need from myself today? When was the last time you told yourself I love you?
In this journey of healing we are putting emphasizes on both physical and mental health because there both extremely important. For 24 years of my life I’ve deprived myself of the love and attention that I desperately needed because I was trying to find it in other things and people. I thought clothes, makeup and looking my best would bring me happiness. I thought being in relationships would make me happy. I figured all of these things would fill this empty void on the inside but I will admit I was WRONG! For years I’ve been living life with this emptiness that I just didn’t know how to handle until now.
Three months after my 25th birthday I woke up and was instantly hit with different emotions all at once. I didn’t know what was wrong but I knew I needed to pray. I found out that my entire life was a continuous cycle of faking happiness. That for years I’ve been suffering in silence and today is the time to stop the cycle. That was when this current journey of self discovery, mental health awareness and healing was born.
Faking happiness is when you appear to be happy to others on the outside but don’t truly feel this way internally. You still feel as though something is missing.http://www.betterhelp.com
WHAT HAVE I LEARNED SO FAR?
- You can not run or hide from your emotions. On this journey it will bring up negative emotions, thoughts, trauma and pain that have been pushed deep inside of your subconscious. Why? Because everything stems from the beginning which is your past. Starting from the beginning can help with getting to the the root cause of your suffering. Don’t be afraid of your past simply embrace it and release it!
- We’re quick to point fingers at everyone else but what about the one person who has done the most damage in our lives? Ourselves! We have to start taking self accountability for choices and actions that we knowingly put ourselves in. Work on your self esteem and self love so we will not settle for any and everything.
- The way you view and see yourself is the way others will treat you. The vibes you give is what you will attract and get back. So, be mindful of who you hang around, what you think about yourself, and what you speak into the atmosphere.
- Finding happiness isn’t a one day process it’s a journey that you literally have to buckle up and mentally prepare yourself for.
BOOKS THAT HAVE HELPED ME DURING THIS JOURNEY:
Ask yourself these questions: When will I stop existing and start living? When will I stop suffering in silence?
My journey of self healing has been releasing, painful, eye opening and a never ending emotional roller coaster that I know will be so rewarding. I cant wait until you embark on your own journey. Remember to fight for the life and happiness that you want. Know that you are not alone! Believe that you deserve great things in life! Believe that you deserve happiness!
Let’s fight this shit together!
Sending lots of love your way,
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255